Oh Happy Day...

Well, after an amazing 4 day weekend up North, at home, I'm all settled back in at my "Home" and not ready to get back to reality. The weekend was a much needed relaxation station :)

It all started out with the 4 hr drive. I had to stop in Anita to pick up some Bull Semen and transport it to a guy up North by us. After picking that up I had a 2 hr drive to Sioux City where I met with my Aunt and went out for Mexican with her. After lunch I had an Ortho appointment. GOOD NEWS!!! Braces come off on the 17th of June! :) 5 days before the Wedding! :) Then I made the 45 minute "Home Stretch" to Orange City. I dropped off the Semen and this guy's house then I was off to my mothers.

My little sister Cassie Graduated from the 8th grade on Friday. I went to my moms house before hand so she could color my hair, and so I could help Cassie get ready for the evening. Mom pipe curled Cassie's hair while I did her make up. She looked gorgeous!

After doing Cassie's hair and make up my mom colored my hair. I was going for the bleach blonde highlights with the dark red lowlights, just something to "spice" up my look a little, and this is what it turned out to be...

SO red, you could see me coming from a mile away. My dad jokes that it looks like I got into a fight with a Magic Marker or a Permanent marker and it won't come out. Well, I am VERY MUCH SO hoping that it fades QUITE A BIT before the Wedding which is just a Mere 22 days away! :)

Well. Moving on. After the hair was colored, I volunteered to take my sister to Graduation. She had to be there early and no one else in my family was ready to go so, of course, Roslyn volunteered. I walked into the church with her and realized, to my disgust, I was at least a foot shorter than over 1/2 of her class. Her class is absolutely HUGE! I felt like a very very VERY short person. Well, the ceremony went great but all Cassie could think about was FOOD and Get Me Out Of This Dress...

(As you can see she wasn't very excited to be taking SO MANY PICTURES!) lol.

 After the Graduation Ceremony I rode with Dad and Sara out to Oak Grove where I stayed the rest of the Weekend. This is a fairly large campground next to the river. This was by far the best part of my weekend. I was able to spend quality time with Dad, Sara, Cassie, and Missy. It was very nice to go on long hikes with Cassie. She was the only one really willing to get out and about. Sara and Dad just wanted to nap in their reclining chairs. lazy bums. At Oak Grove we had campfires, made smores, cooked over the fire, went on long hikes, saw some deer and turkeys, as well as go fishing together. It was a really good, relaxing, calm time out in the wilderness.

My favorite part was the scenery. From the campground you could see the tree's out on the hill to the South while just on the other side of the drive you could go directly into the woods. There were paths all through the park so you could go walking in the middle of the woods, along the river, and out on the plains of grass. It was so calm and peacefull. We got to see 2 doe's while walking through the tree's. The deer were so calm and gracefull when they walked up the hills, I have never been so close to a real deer for such an amount of time. It was amazing to see how calm and peaceful they are in their own environment.

Well, as much as I hate to say this, the weekend had to come to an end. Cassie, Sara, and I all showered last night @ 10:30 pm. This was the last activity we got to do together. ( no we didn't shower together, but we did talk and sing in the showers :)). I got up bright and early at 5:30 this morning to pack everything up. When I went out of the camper, a whole flock of Turkeys just so happened to be walking across the campground. They were so noisy... gobbling and cackling at their little babies. It was adorable. I said my goodbyes to Dad, Sara, and Cassie and was on my way.

I had a wonderful weekend, but it feels amazing to be back home with Brad and Sasha. :) Brad was much missed by his two girls! :)

Thanks for Reading!

<3 Roz.

Weekend Gettaway...

Today my emotions have been unleashed to the excitement of a weekend at "home". Home. Aaah. Although I consider Creston my home right now, and Ames to be me "soon-to-be" home, my Dad's 8 acre farm, will always be HOME to me.

The place I was raised. The place where I cried, I rejoyced, and the 2nd place I love the most in this entire world. Although my Husband-to-be hates, HATES Sioux County, I love the feeling of being in that "know like the back of my hand" country. The place we do directions by landmarks. Where the Floyd river cuts right through the land. Where the dairy cows bellar, and the hogs smell. Home....

There is much in store for me this weekend. My 2ND TO LAST ortho appointment, my little sisters 8th grade graduation, my final dress fitting before the wedding, getting the DJ all booked and paid for the reception, playing with my Baby girl; Shotzie, camping with the daddio, and chillaxin with friends. Nothing better than a weekend gettaway. I mean, don't get me wrong; I love Creston, I love my Job, and of course I Love Brad... but, it will be good to "gettaway" for a few days.

This weekend is one of few that I will travel home alone. Brad will not be able to make it this weekend due to his job. But. I know he will be with me in Heart and I with him. I love him to death, but he just can't make it this weekend. I am ok with that. Usually we go home together, enjoy family time, long driving times, friend time, and personal time. But this weekend will be different. I'll be doing that all alone. With the wedding coming up, and moving, and my moms wedding and everything else that is cramm packed into this summer, a relaxing weekend will be a nice break from the stress my life is filled with at the moment. Its time for me to sit back and relax. Take a "me" weekend. Spend time with My friends, My family, and Myself.

I can guarantee that Brad will totally disagree with this Blog, if he reads it. :) But I'm ok with that! Every one has their differences. I understand that Brad needs his own "me" time. He goes fishing. He goes golfing. Something he enjoys helps him to think. The 4 hr drive HOME and the 4 hr drive back "home" will really help me think, relax, and enjoy my own company.

I'm going to miss Brad this weekend, but I'll be more than glad to get back to Creson on Sunday. I'll be back in my #1 favorite Place, Brad's Arms. <3

Catch ya on the Flip side!

Roz

I Can't Be Tamed...

Anyone heard Miley Cirus's new single hit, "I Can't Be Tamed"?...

Yup, my knew life motto has arrived. As the days go by in my life I find myself figuring out who I am through artists songs. This one is my current motto. :)...

The song talks about a rare breed of a birdish creature, she's caught and caged and displayed for all to see. She's shy, dark, and scared when all of the sudden she jumps out and defends herself.

"They try to change me, but they realize they can't".

Have you ever had people love you for who you are? Yeah, me too. Have you ever had people who want you to be someone your not? Yeah, again, me too. Who HASN'T ever had anyone want them to change? I have had many people who tried changing me into something they want me to be, just so they can be my "friend", my co-worker, my boyfriend, my family.

"And every tomorrow is a day I never planned."

Every have a day planned out and it ALWAYS gets out of wack... Welcome to my life. I've learned to go with the flow and allow the good Lord to lead me through my days. Sure, I plan important things like Weddings, and Meetings, and Celebrations, but I tend to not plan dates, activities, games, or every day activities because I have learned that the important things always find a way to happen, anything that is un-important will happen if its intended to, anything else, forget it. Not worth wasting your worries on.

"I wanna fly, I wanna drive, I wanna go. I wanna be a part-a somethin I don know."

Although I'm settling down, getting married, I'm still a wild bird. I wanna be free. I wanna fly. I wanna drive. I wanna go. I've been a bird in a cage all my life, not stepping outside for myself. Always doing stuff for others, always trying to help others, always trying to please others. Now its me time. ISU, coming up fast, starts August 23rd. ISU is my "part-a somethin I don know" while i'm going to fly, drive, and go there. I'm going to be free, I'm going to get through it. This is my encouragement. The part of the song that helps me realize I'm doing this for ME. Not anyone else, but Me. My future, My Family, My life, My husband. Everything that deals with ME.

"I'm not a trick you play, I'm wired a different way. I'm not a mistake, I'm not a fake, It's set in my DNA."

My life was put here for reason. Although my parents may say I was an "oops" baby, God put me in there lives for a reason. God put me in your life for a reason. We're all here for a reason. I'm not a trick that God played on my parents at a young age.
I am who I am. I'm different and unique. I am wired my own special way compared to everyone else on this earth.
I am real, I am not fake. I am, who I am, not who you want me to be.
I am my mother. I am my father. Combined I am them.

"And if you try to hold me back I might-a drove, but baby by now you should know.... I Can't Be Tamed. I Can't Be Changed."

I love Brad. He is my life. He has seen me change through life, which is normal. College changed me in some way. My life experiences have changed me in some way. I cannot be changed because someone wants me to change, I have to be willing to change, or God has to will my change. I'll admit. I have changed, but in a good way. I have grown up. But, even though this may be true; I cannot be changed. I am still the free spirited, fly-drive-go me. I am free, and I am happy.

Although I am settling down next month with the one I love... I'm still free spirited, free minded, and free willed. If I set my mind to something, It Will Be Done. This song has really encouraged me to pursue my dream. So thats what I'm doing. Because I Can't Be Tamed.


Thx All!

<3 Roslyn

A Night, Just Right...

Yesterday I got off work at 3 pm. I usually work 3-11, but decided to swtitch it up so Brad and I could have a night together. We don't spend much time together now that the summer has started; He's working full time, I'm working practically full time. There's just not that much time to spend when he works 6 am - 4 pm and I'm working 3 pm - 11 pm. I get off work, he's already sleeping. He gets off work, I'm already at work.

We decided to hit it up in Des Moines last night. We first decided to hit up the mall. Jordan Creek Mall. My favorite place in Des Moines! :) But, it was already 5:00 when we got there so, everything was closing at 6:00. Scheels it was. :) Without even bothering with the 80 other stores in that mall, our feet led us directly there. :) Brad and I tend to spend most of our mall time in Scheels. This time I had a purpose!

My little sister Cassie graduates on Friday... so I had to find something for her! Well, my "nose" led me right to the spot... but of course I'm not going to tell you what it is... because she reads my blog :p...

Well after finding Cassie's gift. Brad and I HAD to stop at the fudge shop in Scheel's. Yes, FUDGE! ... they have ALL kinds of fudge. Pink fudge to Butterfinger Fudge to Walnut Fudge to regular Fudge. But, that isn't our favorite part... the Taffy is! ... num num. Well, needless to say Brad and I bought 4 pounds of taffy. Hopefully that will hold us over for a while! :) hehe. Well, they have even more types of taffy than they do fudge. Licorice, Strawberry, Orange, Grape, Cherry, Apple, Pear, Caramel Apple Sucker, Caramel Fudge, Tropical Fruit, Bubble Gum, Banana, Strawberry Banana, Cookie Dough, Watermelon, Red Licorice, Vanilla, Maple Syrup, Chocolate, and a few more, but I don't like them :) lol.

After purchasing our stuff from Scheel's, we went to the food court... of course by now it was 6:15 and EVERYTHING was CLOSED! So, Brad and I had 45 minutes until our movie started, and not a clue where any fast food was in this city! lol. So we drove aimlessly around for 20 minutes before finding a Mc Donalds... Attached to a Kum n Go... yeah... "Real Romantic" I told him. He just laughed. He stated "Its better than nothing, and its going to have to do because we're due back for our movie in just a little bit."

After getting our supper, we rushed back to the Theatre in Jordan Creek. 6:55 rolled around and we got our tickets to see "The Backup Plan". The movie started at 7:10. I laughed the whole movie through, even Brad throught it was a great movie. 8:45 came and the movie was over, we walked out together laughing and giggling. "Flirting" the the max, although Brad swears that he doesn't flirt with me. He he, he does. A 1 hr drive home really helped us talk, and enjoy some time with eachother. We talked about the movie, and about moving to Ames in just 1 month, the wedding, and everything that is happening this summer!

If any of you ever want a good idea for a future date, I suggest "The Backup Plan". This movie is all about relationships and keeping them together, through all of life's struggles. IT was a really good movie for Brad and I to see, a mere 30 days before the wedding. :)

Thanks.
Roslyn

(sorry, this one had a terrible ending) lol.

Not A Day Goes By...

May 22... So Much in my life has happened on May 22.

I graduated from High School on May 22, 2008. I started dating my Fiance on May 22, 2008.. :) Coincidence? Who knows....

But the worst of them all, My 4 year old brother Breiton died May 22, 2005.

Today at 3:20 pm will be exactly 5 years since I saw his shining face. Breiton was born July 20, 2000. He was my "bestest buddy" for the entire 4 years, 10 months, and 12 days of his life. Although I do not cry daily for him, because I miss him. I do think about him daily, and I do cry out for him. My little brother and I were inseperable. We did everything together. He was my pride and joy. Together we when 4-wheeling, biking, we played "farm" together with all of his toy horses. When he had nightmares, he'd come to me, we'd cuddle, and watch a movie together. His favorite move was Spirit; Stallion of the Cimeron. I haven't watched this movie in years, but I can clearly see him sitting on the couch, yelling at the top of his lungs, singing way off pitch to all the songs within that movie. Although it makes me sad to think about him, I love remembering all the stuff that we did together. Sure, I mourn for his life, and I miss him like crazy, but I know that he is with my Lord. I know he is safe, and I just wait for the day until we are re-united again.

There is a song that I love to listen to, to remind me that I'll be ok, that all I can be with him is Spirit. This song is called "Every Minute that I Breathe" by Jana Alayra.

"Photo's on the Mantle I won't Change,
For they still remind me of a day,
You filled our Hearths with Laughter and your Smile.
How we Loved you for Awhile.
The day came in the Blinking of an eye,
When suddenly we had to say Goodbye,
As you were Soaring homeward through the Blue,
Part of me went Right along with you.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight to the place,
Where you are.
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Now every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.

You gave me so much more than joy,
In you I saw a Reason for each morn,
In a world unwinding as it spun,
Holding you would make me Still again.
Many say your Days with us were too few,
But they were numbered by the Lord for you.
A Mesage of your life remains through time,
Jesus gave you ever lasting light.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight to the place,
Where you are.
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Everytime I see you Dancing through my mind,
Though I long to hold you my Soul takes Flight,
To the place where you Live.
To watch you Sing and Dance what would I give!
Now every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.

One day I will See,
Jesus come for Me
No one knows the hour He will come.
I will Fall at his feet,
For all He's done for me.
Then straight into you Arms I'll run.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight,
To the place where you are,
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Everytime I see you Dancing through my mind,
Though I long to hold you my soul takes Flight,
To the place where you live.
To watch you Sing and Dance what would I give!
Now every minute that I breathe,
Every minute that I breathe,
Every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.
You live what I believe.


This song helps me get through. Knowing that the Lord is with me, and that Breiton is happy singing and dancing to his own beet. I'll Love him and Miss him forever. But he's Forever in my Heart. <3

Thanks,
Roslyn

Stuffed Up? ... Not in Teddy's Case...

As you read, you may find this to sound like a fairy tale!

So, as you may know, I have an 8 month old pup. And she Loves trouble...

Well, when we first got sasha she was 2 months old, tiny, cute, slept all the time and pee'd on my carpet.

She's now fully grown, house trained, and loves to chew chew chew.

Well, right after we got her Brad's older sister gave her a stuffed pig.

We called him Piggie. She LOVED piggie. Piggie was like her play mate.

She slept with him, she chewed on him, and she even took him to the bathroom wither her.

Everywhere Sasha went, Piggie went too. Until one day Sasha decided to rip Piggies arm off!

Well, I knew Sasha loved that pig, so I stuffed its arm back inside to cover up the whole.

I didn't want her pulling all that stuffing out all over my house. Well, Piggie lasted for

another month like that, until Sasha figured out how to get the arm out. Brad was watching

her one night while I was at work, and she tore Piggie to pieces. Brad and I decided

that it was time to part with Piggie, like a baby with its Passafire.

A few weeks went by, and Sasha just wasn't as playful as before. Brad and I

broke down and went and bought "Teddy". A $5 baby's teddy bear from Wal-Mart.

Teddy has been with the family for 1 1/2 months now. Teddy became the new Piggie,

only Teddy always managed to be more slobery than Piggie. Well, 2 nights ago I put

Sasha to bed in her kennel, Teddy tucked in right besides her, and this is what I wake up to in the Morning...

Poor Sasha know's she did it this time! But, luckily I felt nice that morning and let her keep Teddy.

Now, as I write this blog, she lays down by my foot of the bed, and tosses him around,

just like a little rag doll. O how she loves her Teddy!

Thanks for reading!

Roslyn :)

A First for Everything...

Well. Here I am. I have told myself for 3 years now that I wouldn't fall into the world of Blogging. But I made it! Not a scratch on me! :)... I never really have been much of a writer, up until my senior year in high school. Although I'm a good solid 2 years out of High School now, I have found myself to be keeping a journal.... My Scrap Book. I love to write stories, post pictures, and add a few details here and there.

A friend of mine suggested blogging.... Well. I am Here. My life has been full of ups and downs. Many of them leading me to write. I have found that in writing/jouneling, I am able to express my emotions alot more than I am through words. People make me run, hide, sit in the corner and not say anything. But get me in front of a word document, and I could go all day.

I will admitt that, although I am a college graduate (as of 1 week ago tomorrow)... I am horrid at grammar and spelling! :) ... thank goodness for spell check on here, but sorry for the gramatical errors! hehe.

Well, to let you all know a little bit more about me... I am engaged to be Married in a mere 33 days! I am super excited, to say the least. The last month seemed to have flown by fast, now these last 33 days will seem to be an endless procedure of getting all the final details down. Brad and I have been together for forever. We've been best friends since the 8th grade, we've known each other since the 6th grade... thats equivilent to 10 years now.

Brad and I own a dog, together we take care of her. We have oficially adopted her as our "first child". She is our pride and joy for the time being. She's now 8 months old and her name is Sasha. She is a Welsh Corgi/ Beagle mix and she LOVES trouble. But she keeps us on our toes.

Well, I better not get too carried away, or I won't have much to talk about tomorrow! I don't know if anyone will read this, but O well. It's always the thought that counts right?

Thanks all,

Roslyn