Not A Day Goes By...

May 22... So Much in my life has happened on May 22.

I graduated from High School on May 22, 2008. I started dating my Fiance on May 22, 2008.. :) Coincidence? Who knows....

But the worst of them all, My 4 year old brother Breiton died May 22, 2005.

Today at 3:20 pm will be exactly 5 years since I saw his shining face. Breiton was born July 20, 2000. He was my "bestest buddy" for the entire 4 years, 10 months, and 12 days of his life. Although I do not cry daily for him, because I miss him. I do think about him daily, and I do cry out for him. My little brother and I were inseperable. We did everything together. He was my pride and joy. Together we when 4-wheeling, biking, we played "farm" together with all of his toy horses. When he had nightmares, he'd come to me, we'd cuddle, and watch a movie together. His favorite move was Spirit; Stallion of the Cimeron. I haven't watched this movie in years, but I can clearly see him sitting on the couch, yelling at the top of his lungs, singing way off pitch to all the songs within that movie. Although it makes me sad to think about him, I love remembering all the stuff that we did together. Sure, I mourn for his life, and I miss him like crazy, but I know that he is with my Lord. I know he is safe, and I just wait for the day until we are re-united again.

There is a song that I love to listen to, to remind me that I'll be ok, that all I can be with him is Spirit. This song is called "Every Minute that I Breathe" by Jana Alayra.

"Photo's on the Mantle I won't Change,
For they still remind me of a day,
You filled our Hearths with Laughter and your Smile.
How we Loved you for Awhile.
The day came in the Blinking of an eye,
When suddenly we had to say Goodbye,
As you were Soaring homeward through the Blue,
Part of me went Right along with you.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight to the place,
Where you are.
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Now every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.

You gave me so much more than joy,
In you I saw a Reason for each morn,
In a world unwinding as it spun,
Holding you would make me Still again.
Many say your Days with us were too few,
But they were numbered by the Lord for you.
A Mesage of your life remains through time,
Jesus gave you ever lasting light.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight to the place,
Where you are.
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Everytime I see you Dancing through my mind,
Though I long to hold you my Soul takes Flight,
To the place where you Live.
To watch you Sing and Dance what would I give!
Now every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.

One day I will See,
Jesus come for Me
No one knows the hour He will come.
I will Fall at his feet,
For all He's done for me.
Then straight into you Arms I'll run.

Every time I hear you in my Mind,
Though my Heart weaps,
My soul takes Flight,
To the place where you are,
Somewhere far beyond the farthest Star.
Everytime I see you Dancing through my mind,
Though I long to hold you my soul takes Flight,
To the place where you live.
To watch you Sing and Dance what would I give!
Now every minute that I breathe,
Every minute that I breathe,
Every minute that I breathe,
You live what I believe.
You live what I believe.


This song helps me get through. Knowing that the Lord is with me, and that Breiton is happy singing and dancing to his own beet. I'll Love him and Miss him forever. But he's Forever in my Heart. <3

Thanks,
Roslyn